Staring at the dead flowers in my window.
Should have gotten rid of them by now.
On my desk is a huge stack of dishes.
Should have cleaned them.
More dishes on my table.
The mess on the floor.
My suitcase from last time I saw parents.
Trash from when I got my new pens.
Empty bottles I should deliver.
And even though all that stuff is there.
Stuff that would be so easy to just do and get over with.
I don’t think about it.
I’m floating around in a space in my head.
It’s mostly grey, clouded.
I can’t focus in there.
I can’t take action in there.
I’m immersed in the clouds.
It feels more like rain.
Hitting my face.
Wetting me and everything around me.
Making it impossible to focus on anything.
My questions is as simple as that. How do you find joy in working out? – cause right now I can’t seem to find it. I do feel proud when going home, but going – and staying there and doing the work is a terrible chore for me.
I know working out isn’t a joy for everyone, but I would like to know how it is for you, and how you motivate yourself – and how you find joy in the workout?
I live in a rented room. In that room I need my sleep area, eating area, study room and relax functions. Along with my closet, all my stuff and a tv.
Kitchen and bathroom is luckily shared with my roomie so those kinda things doesn’t need a place in my room.
The problem is that I really like the minimalistic design of rooms. Not too much on the shelves, lots of breathing space and easy access to everything. But my room is nothing like that. It’s crowded. Way too crowded. (more…)