I’m just playing around a bit tonight. The music is playing calmly, my room is looking clean and I’m sitting under a blanket on the sofa and editing some photos in ways I haven’t before and I just thought I would show you part of what I’m doing.
This is one way I enjoy spending my time – and maybe next time I forget I will be able to find this again and remember.
This weeks photo challenge was “A Good Match“. For me it was the contrast of the colours. And even the part of the giraffe. Top and bottom. Black and white.
YES – I made it to the gym both yesterday and today, and the experiences were so different from each other.
Today I had fun! I laughed and I played. I got a rope out for shipping and one of those blow up gym balls which I had no idea what to do with – but I let loose and had fun while my pulse was up high.
I didn’t go today. I was meant to, but I couldn’t. I’m having a bad day today and it just all got too much – so when the opportunity to wait until tomorrow to go suddenly came I grabbed it like a needy child. I cried and shivered and had a stomach ache. And I got angry at myself for feeling like that, but luckily I spoke to a friend and she helped me get my mind together and find out what I wanted to do.
This weekend I’m going to a vacation house with 5 friends (new friends. We don’t know each other that well yet) . I’m so excited and have been looking forward to it for a month – but at the same time I’ve got a very bad stomach ache thinking about the trip.
How will I handle not having my own room? Being with people constantly for 48 hours. Keeping a good mood so they’ll like me. Stop my bad thoughts from taking over. Keeping my energy levels up. Getting sleep during the night in a new place – and with someone asleep next to me. Be open enough so we will get to know each other more – but not spill my every little secret. What if my anxiety takes over? What if I get too anxious about leaving and wanna cancel the whole thing?
Thoughts like those are filling my mind right now. But I try keeping them away and occupying myself with other stuff. I will be prepared when it becomes time to leave. I am prepared so thinking about it further won’t calm me down, it’ll just upset me more.
Luckily it’s time for bed. Hopefully I will get some sleep.