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Are the pills affecting my mind?

Anyone else ever felt like painkillers were making you drowsy, unable to think properly, make you forget stuff?

Actually I am not sure if it’s the painkillers or the pain itself. I’ve felt like this both in January after my first surgery and now after my second one too.

It is like the pain takes a big chunk of my brain and dedicates that part to pain. And what’s left to think and work for the rest of me is not enough to function like I usually do.
It is a very strange feeling for me. I am not feeling like myself, I keep forgetting stuff I normally wouldn’t, and I am not thinking the way I usually would. It’s just a swarm of stuff going on inside me.
On the upside, it also makes me worry less about stuff I normally would worry a lot about. I simply cant’ fit it all into my mind. That’s how it feels anyway.

Maybe I should just enjoy it for as long as it lasts.
(Got an appointment with the hospital tomorrow so hopefully they can help me get well faster)

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Stupid doctor!

Or dentist I should say. Refusing to give me antibiotics when my would after the surgery is clearly infected (from what I’ve told the other 3 people I’ve spoken to and what they’ve told me to look out for!).

I was told to call if certain stuff happened – and it did, so I called. And I was made to talk to a Swedish dentist that I barely understood. He did not understand how much pain I am in these days. Of course I am doing better than right after the surgery, and less swollen than it was then, but it’s much worse than it’s supposed to be, and way worse than the first time. And all the things the first dentist told me to look for has happened. Except one fact.. it hasn’t swelled up more since. But honestly, I think if I was 15 kilos lighter it would be showing – cause I can feel it in my cheek, just barely see it being much swollen.

I feel like I’m rambling and I just wanna say that he’s not understanding what I was trying to tell him, and maybe the pills are making me think and speak less clear than I want to, and maybe it’s all gonna be fine. But I’m sick and tired of hurting and I just want it to stop. Give me the medicine!!

(Gonna call again tomorrow and hopefully talk to a nice person again who will understand.)

(Dealing with anxiety and being misunderstood like this over the phone is terrible. Already dreading making the next call.)