Month: June 2017

When lyrics express your thoughts better than you ever could yourself

It is often hard to express my own feelings – and then once in a while I am almost overwhelmed with how well another person has already done it. Sia created this song around 15 years ago now, and I am sure I am not alone in feeling like she’s read my mind before the thoughts even existed.

“Breathe Me”

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there’s no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah, I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

(Lyrics from Breathe Me by Sia)

A Great Big World – Music rec

A Great Big World – what a confusing band name, but I have to admit that I love it quite a lot.

I wanna love and be the one who is loved
No, I won’t stop dreaming
‘Cause this isn’t over
It’s never over

– Lyric from “Won’t Stop Running” by A Great Big World

I’ve been listening to some songs of theirs for a while now, and they never fail to make me feel something. The lead singer’s voice can be both tender and direct in a way that makes me listen really carefully. It’s soft but still has an edge. And the music just… I love it. They have written songs with purpose. That’s something I like listening to.

The way his voice harmonises with Aguilera’s on “Say Something” gives me chills every time I hear it. “Already Home” makes me feel loved and hopeful and “Won’t Stop Running” gives me courage and optimism, and even a bit of stubbornness that nothing will ever make me stop running!

 

This isn’t usually what I write around here, but I wanted to share this. No regrets 🙂

In the Fitbit club!

I bought it! I splurged and bought the FitBit Charge 2 and in the rosegold/lavender coloured version.

I am very excited about this. And kind of nervous about it too. Will it help me in any way? At all? Will I hate wearing it around my wrist? Will I find it motivating to see the numbers?

I hope it works out in my favour. In any case I just finished setting it up and now did my first 250 steps while wearing it. Exciting. No matter how it works out I believe I can say we’re off to a good start.

Bad mood

It is one of those days.. Im in a bad mood. Look at me the wrong way and I will bite your head off. 

Every small thing annoys me terribly and I’m negative towards everything. 

What do you do then? I mean.. What do you do when that happens? 
Here’s my ideas/options:

  1. Crawl into bed and stay there forever and accept that today is bad.
  2. Go to the gym even though I’m not comfortable there yet – but maybe today is good for that cause it can’t get any worse – and get anger out on the machines.
  3. Force myself to look at things with a brighter mind and hope that the forced attitude will become reality. 

Does the sun bring expectation?

Here’s a thought….

In winter it is almost expected that you snuggle up under the blanket and binge movies or shows.

In summer you’re expected to go out – get tan, enjoy the weather and so on.

 

I have had many negative experiences during summertime. Or what I remember as negatives. People commenting on how pale I was. People judging me for not wearing shorts. Getting annoying comments because I wanted to watch sport events on tv (Tour de France, Football championships, the Olympics ..). Feeling uncomfortable in my bathing suit because I was overweight. Getting the weird eyebrow-twitch from people when they hear the fact that I don’t particular enjoy the ocean or the beach.

Basically summer brings a lot of things that make me feel like people are judging me. Like they’re not understanding my feelings or they simply don’t respect my opinions. I feel like those things has made me evolve negative feelings towards the season in general. As summer gets closer the expectations grow bigger too. Go out. Don’t hide at home. Lose some clothes. Lose some weight. Get some sun.

I don’t think people mean bad, but it is hard for them to understand that I don’t share the excitement that they feel.

I don’t have a huge conclusion to this. It was just a thought I’ve been having lately. The only thing that I feel is right to end this now, is the wish that I – and you reading this – will learn from it. Respect and listen to each other and don’t force our own feelings upon someone else.

Motivation for weight loss

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Basically it’s just a list – but how motivating is this?!

It’s childish and not as artsy as some of the other weight trackers I’ve seen – but the coloured side is amazing! And it’s just up to me to lose weight and that way expand the colours. An extra added motivational factor is the text by 85 kgs, – it says “Hairdresser” in Danish, which of course means that I can get a haircut with I reached the 85 kgs.

Here’s to hoping for progress!