Heavy anxiety today

It’s too much.

It’s a pit in my stomach.
It’s the tears in my eyes.
It’s the way my breath only barely reaches my chest.
It’s the slight shiver of my hands.

It’s the way I can’t see past myself.
It’s the dizziness I feel when thinking about getting up.
It’s the longing to hide.
It’s the doubt I feel inside.

It’s how every sound scares me.
It’s how I wish the world was gone.
It’s how I wish that I was gone.

It’s not enough.

 

 

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10 comments

  1. I relate so deeply to the line “It’s how every sound scares me” I have misophonia, PTSD, depression and an ED. Food, weight and noises throw me into crippling panic attacks daily. Hang in there xx

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      1. Thank you πŸ™‚ and I’m glad it made you smile! And yes, yes we will! For what it’s worth, the anxiety has given us a very creative outlook to the world we live in, which isn’t all bad πŸ™‚

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