Nervous about upcoming weekend

This weekend I’m going to a vacation house with 5 friends (new friends. We don’t know each other that well yet) . I’m so excited and have been looking forward to it for a month – but at the same time I’ve got a very bad stomach ache thinking about the trip.

How will I handle not having my own room? Being with people constantly for 48 hours. Keeping a good mood so they’ll like me. Stop my bad thoughts from taking over. Keeping my energy levels up. Getting sleep during the night in a new place – and with someone asleep next to me. Be open enough so we will get to know each other more – but not spill my every little secret. What if my anxiety takes over? What if I get too anxious about leaving and wanna cancel the whole thing?

Thoughts like those are filling my mind right now. But I try keeping them away and occupying myself with other stuff. I will be prepared when it becomes time to leave. I am prepared so thinking about it further won’t calm me down, it’ll just upset me more.

Luckily it’s time for bed. Hopefully I will get some sleep.

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4 comments

  1. Hi Chickpea, Sounds like you are worried about what other people will think of you. STOP! Just be yourself and have a great time. You must be going to someplace that you wanted to go to unless these people kidnapped you. LOL You will be fine. Remember if it gets overwhelming take a step back, take a walk, get up and go to the bathroom and sit on the toilet for 10 mins to read my daily blog lol. You got this. Can’t wait to read about this trip and how you conquered it! -Bruce

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