This is how I feel mostly these days. Partly just cause my bed is the most comfortable and cozy spot ever. Also just cause when I’m there I can go into dreams or just snuggle, I can hide and I can just.. do nothing.
Especially if I’ve actually challenged myself the desire to stay in bed takes over, but it’s in a different way then. Then the following days/week after doing something hard I will be so tired that bed seems like the only real option for me.
I’ve talked to my psychologist about this.. wanting to stay in bed forever. And what we agreed in the end was that bed was okay. It’s a nice place – but it can’t be a hiding place. I can stay in bed because I feel like it. Wanting the cuddle and warmth, but if it’s because I’m hiding I need to get up.
It’s hard to apply in reality though. But knowing what to do is a step in the right direction. Taking action is a step all in it’s own. And I’m trying – and that’s enough!
Clinomania is a very real feeling in my life. I hope I learn to control it a but more in the future, but to me, right now, it also feels like a very safe and comfortable feeling, so right now I’m not ready to fight it for real.