Month: January 2017

When I need to calm down

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I got a few colouring books for my birthday a week ago, and since then I’ve been putting them to good use. They’re different from my other ones and I really enjoy being able to switch between them. Patterns or motives, depending on what I’m in the mood for.  (more…)

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Feeling depressed, but with hope

It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get.

– Confucius.

Seeing stuff like this makes me feel down. Especially when I don’t have a great day. Words like these makes me feel like the world is out to get me, trying to make my life worse than it is. And it gets very hard for me to see anything positive in life. (more…)

Weight loss journey #2 – Losing the first 5 kgs

First of all a disclaimer. I wanna say that I’m not an expert on any of this. I’m not educated and the only experience I have is what I’ve felt on my own body, heard from others and read online.  

But I wanna share what I did. As I said in my post Weight Loss Journey #1 I’ve gone from 103 kgs to 90 kgs now. I started May 2016 – and got to 90 kgs December 2016. Since then, the last two months has been “quiet”. I haven’t gained, but I also haven’t lost anything. The reason being that I allowed myself a break for christmas, and the fact that I’ve been sick and overcoming minor surgery in January. Now though, it’s time to get back to business.

For this post, however, I wanna share what worked for me. This post will be the beginning. Later I will post more about the progress. (more…)

If depression were a choice

Inspired by this post, I decided to give my own version of this topic. 

If depression were a choice I wouldn’t be lying to my friends, saying I’m sick and cancelling our visits.

If depression were a choice I wouldn’t be crying at night cause there just doesn’t seem to be any light left in my world.

I depression were a choice I would not be taking those pills that has a list of side effects long enough that I can’t even bear to read it properly. (more…)

Favorite macros

These are some of my favourite photos that I’ve ever taken. It’s been a while since I took them, but they’re still the ones I prefer. Partly cause of the photos themselves. Partly cause of the memories of the day taking them.

I love the light flower petals, especially in the bottom photo where you can actually see the texture of the petal and to me it just looks so soft my eyes can practically feel it. I also love the colours. The white mixed with the green and the small yellow addition in the middle.

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My university experience

Standstill is a pretty good word to describe how I’ve felt the last three and a half years of my life.

I’m at the point in my life where I’ve moved out from my parents’ place, and I’m supposed to be either working or getting an education. But I’ve found it’s not as easy as I thought it would be. And the plans I had for myself aren’t coming together as I imagined.

Sometimes I feel like I’ve lost the person I used to be. (more…)

My anxiety and depression

This is a big step.. I’ve never been particular open about my anxiety or my depression before.

Tomorrow there will be a post about how it all started – or how it all started as far as I know. I’ve recently started going to a new psychologist who is talking more about childhood and stuff and I have a feeling we might see that it’s all started before I think it has.

My symptoms are usually: Stomach aches, headaches, shivering all over, voice cracking, crying, need to be alone, need to be at home.

My anxiety and my lack of ability to handle it eventually made me quit my education and pull back from all social activities. I started having a hard time going out, even to buy groceries or to see my best friends. The only people I let myself be around was my close family, but I would keep it a secret how badly I felt and how isolated I’d become. Today they know how I feel and I’ve gotten treatment. Or I started treatment. (more…)

Minimalistic design – but too much stuff!

I live in a rented room. In that room I need my sleep area, eating area, study room and relax functions. Along with my closet, all my stuff and a tv.

Kitchen and bathroom is luckily shared with my roomie so those kinda things doesn’t need a place in my room.

The problem is that I really like the minimalistic design of rooms. Not too much on the shelves, lots of breathing space and easy access to everything. But my room is nothing like that. It’s crowded. Way too crowded. (more…)

Flower shoot

Wanted to share some photos I took a while ago. Sadly I am still using the settings already put in the camera, macro and auto – but I love the pictures I got out of it.

Flowers are one of my favourite things to photograph. There’s so many nuances and small things to focus on. Things you don’t usually see when seeing them in a vase or outside and you walk by.

Let me know what you think, please. And maybe link me a few places to get inspiration, or to see the difference between the manual settings and the auto ones?

Playlist #1

I wanna share a few of the songs I’ve been listening to the most throughout January 2017.

This month it’s been about listening to music which makes me feel good inside. Music that brings me energy – energy which is especially needed in this dark month of January.

Also, couldn’t help myself but include Calum Scott’s Dancing On My own, I really like it – and these days it strikes something inside me.

  1. Justin Timberlake – Can’t Stop the Feeling
  2. Sia – Cheap Thrills
  3. Pitbull ft Kesha – Timber
  4. Calum Scott – Dancing On My Own

Let me know if you got a song for me to listen to, maybe it’ll make next month’s list!